Another THANKful post :)

(just a heads up, I wrote this last night. that statement will make more sense as you read on )

One of Millions I am sure.

But do not fret friends, I will add my usual ramblings.

I will though get the mundane out of the way.

I am thankful for:

my family.

my new (great) job.

my friends.

my best friend.

my new found confidence.
my God.

cellphones. They keep me in touch with my family that happen to not live in the same state as me.

I am truly thankful for so many things. Big and Small. By small I mean ven mechanical pencils. And shiny shoes..

Today has been awesome. Totally awesome. I had a great day at work. I am so ver thankful for my new found confidence. Usually I'm pretty shy and quiet the first few days at a new job but not here. Here I am me, right off the bat. Wel actually I am not quiet all me, I'm holding back on the sarcasm and smack-talk. ;) I am loving it though. I need to get a few things:

A huge stockpile of gel inserts.
Tape Measurer ,

Binder Pens,

Flats,

Shirts in certain colors,

Calculator...

And a watch! hahaha ugh! I love the thought of shopping but the action of shopping it's self is a pain. Especially when you shop alone.

I have a bunch of thankfulness for my best friend. Hmm where to start? He is amazing. He keeps me sain, always encorages me and hard on me when I need it. Not to mention he knows how to make me laugh.

And here is a little secret, I am thankful for all the guys in my life. Yes, they ARE all FRIENDS, several of whome I know would like more, but i am thank for them. They do offer me encouragement along with intellectual and meaningful conversations. Oh boy, well there are two oh boys here.

One:I almost sound like a tramp. "all the guys in my life" sheeze.

Two: Mom and I just got into a fight. She took a pain pill or two or whatever. And probably a glass of wine.

On a very honest and sober note I think I'm so honest on here because I don't think anyone actually reads this. But it helps me and I hope it may at some point help someone else.

(okay I'm skipping the rest of wht I wrote last night and am going to just talk about today. Sorry if this is confusing.)
I was completely planning on posting all of the above last night, but my moms laptop was acting up. The time here at my moms has been interesting. It has definitely stayed fun though. I handled my very first holiday all alone very well. :) Stayed positive the whole time and had a blast. My step sister didn't talk to me but I wasn't expecting much in that department. I've pretty much been watching football all day and I have never tweeted or been this internet active via phone in a long long time haha.

Mom and I fought last night about "our" wedding dress, My step dad actually stood up for me after slightly guilting be about the seperation. I LOVED seeing all of the family. Even had a great time with my PaPa!

Here are a few pictures!

A few more things I'm thankful for:

Football

Sweet Tator Casserole

Step Family

Laughter

and all of you :)

Have a great night and please be safe if you go out tomorrow!!

Pain and Ramblings

Let me start off by saying this will be a mostly sad post.

I was a hot mess last night. Lots of crying lots of pain, anger, frustration and stress. Lots. My dad called me while I was at work and told me that my Grama (yes I know it's spelt wrong but that's how I've spelt it since I was tiny.) has cancer. She is going to be having kimo and a lot of surgery. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I haven't seen her or my Grampa(who has congestive heart failure and is not doing well) in over two years.
And I haven't been the best grandaughter in the world. I love them more than they'll ever know, but because I sometimes feel like an outcast, which is all in my head I'm sure and a topic I may or may not cover in the future, I haven't tried anywhere near as hard as I should to stay in touch with them. Something that since the seperation/divorce has actually changed, my Grama and I are getting closer. So are my father and I.

But like I said, I haven't seen them in over two years. I have major financial stress, that is hightened by the fact that I want to go see them and I don't want to wait til Febuary like I was originally planny. I want to go now. I want to go in December and stay a while and help, even though my dad and aunt are staying there. I want to go learn about my grama and grampa and make as many memories as I can. There is still a lot I want to learn about and from them.

Last night I was having trouble breathing, I felt nausious, I had a horrible time controlling my tears and I wanted to hurt myself. I wanted to hurt myself so that I could control all of this emotional confusion. I did not though, so don't worry. I'm sure you're wondering why I took it so hard and I can only tell you that I have a lot of stress. A lot. But I am much better today. I came home, had a few beers, and took something to help me sleep. Didn't really sleep well, but at least I slept.Woke up, copied some recipies, ate, went for a jog(gave myself a migrane), and am now helping with the yardsale. I will soon be going shopping. YAY.

BFTAG was on a camping trip out of town, a few hours away actually, but he did call and we talked for about half an hour. Let me tell you, it helped a lot. So did all the people who were blowing up my phone and making me feel better.

Trust me this is not at all the post I was wanting to make, that post will probably be done tomorrow.

And those ramblings I mentioned are probably not going to happen. They are in my head but I seem to not be in a rambling mood.

Moms: Day2

Have you ever felt so torn to do what the "right" thing is and to do what is the "right" thing just not right for everyone else?

So day two has been almost as uneventfull as day one. With the exception that it is not over yet and I work tonight. I did have a great time last night catching up with my Uncle and Mandy. I LOVE their stories of beating each other and when my Uncle has his kids. Tons and tons of laughing last night.

Now I love my mom but like I've said in previous posts, we're not very close. She's honestly not very close with anyone. But she is my mom and I know that she loves me. And wants to be there for me and is worried about everything going on right now. Although she really only knows a little. Pretty much barely more than ya'll.


I'm actually trying not to cry right now. Well, my brain is trying to go either way. To cry or not to cry that is the question.

Don't worry at the end of this week I will tell you the story and it will be long. Very long.



But while at moms it's almost like deja vu. Or like my Jim-Dad (step dad) said last night: Just like old times. Old times as in back when I did live with my mom and she always "asked" me to do/get things for her. Good times Good times. At least I'm not the one being blamed for touching the thermostat(truth be told NO ONE is touching it).



Okay that's all before I tell the "story" ahead of time!! Hope your day goes by very excitingly!!

First Day Off/First Day at Moms

Well.
Where to start? Where to start?


I came to my moms last night after meeting with mah bestie Nicole at Ihop. We talked for almost two/three hours and I promise it felt like only half an hour. When we get together we can talk about 1000 things in an hour and time flies! But those are some of the best friendships!!

My sleep has been better. Which is surprising-ish. Like last night I got rest but not much actual sleep. It's been the other way around for a while, so I'm happy. :)

Oh goodness I really don't know what to say!!

I'm planning on getting my belly button peirced and a few tattoos. I am very excited. Nervous but very excited.

I have my tattoo buddy who is going to be going with me for all of them. We made a deal neither of us can get a tattoo unless the other is there. Did I mention I was nervous??

Okay just checking.

Sleepy??

Well I can definitely tell you that insomnia sure settles the brain down enough to cohesively write. It's about 12:30 AM as I start this, just to let you know.

There is a slight possibility that I might be asleep if Goblyn would shut up but that is not going to happen and I doubt the sleep was going to happen either. :(

Wednesday and Thursday had some pretty big storms go on and they were mainly RIGHT OVER my house. I couldn't sleep thursday for the thunder shaking the house. It was not fun as all.

Orientation actually went great. NWACC was really helpful. Not mention one of the guys that sat at my table went to school with me in like...sixth grade. He had a great icebreaker with "Hey are you the same Corrin that stabbed me in the leg?"

It was something along those lines lol and yes it was me that did that. Neither of us can remember why it even happened but I was/am so sorry! He really didn't care, which was good. I told him at least he had a cool story now.

So Joshua took the car because it had been raining Thursday morning and wasn't going to be able to pick me up on time. I ended up calling my mom who was able to come get me. It was kinda fun hanging out at the salon she works at. The ladies were all very sweet! I was hoping to get her to dye my hair but that was a no go. She was supposed to take me home after she got off work and before she picked up her friend to take him grocery shopping(he's having car troubles). Yeah it ended up I didn't get home til about... almost 7pm.

Orientation ended at 12:30, she got off work about 4:15.

Now don't get me wrong I've met this friend once before when they both graduated cosmetology school and he really does seem like a very nice guy. And I don't know his life story and I of all people have no room to judge, but he was drunk. I'm not really comfortable around people to are drunk, especially when it's still day time on a Thursday...and we're about to go shopping. Have you ever gone shopping with a drunk man? It's only slightly entertaining.

Like I said he seems like a very nice guy and I know that he loves his children. He bought pretty much all of the food that they like. But I honestly just wanted to come home, my mom and I don't get along all that well anyways so prolonged time that was never supposed to happen stresses me out pretty bad.

Hmm it seems this is all I can really think of to write about. I mean I could go on for a while more but the 1am ramblings would make you laugh your butt off!

Night!!/Morning!

(pictures to follow after some sort of sleep lol)

Rain Storm= Perfection!

This day has really been a good one! And it's only half way through!!

Woke up this morning in a good mood. Josh and I had fun walking the dogs. And my DEAR amazing friend Nicole invited me swimming tomorrow! Which is perfect because I have been really wanting to go. And to top it all off it is now storming!! My garden has needed the rain! Plus I'll be able to get the t post out of the ground. It even hailed a little! Not enough to finish totaling the car but hey every little bit helps! ;)

This weekend was a ton of fun! I hung out with a friend from high school and had a blast. We walked around down town talked and looked through a few shops. I even helped him find a few cuff links for his brother. My best friend and her family threw my a mini birthday party since they are going to be gone on my ACTUAL birthday! Love them! Her husband grilled and there was mac n cheese and mashed tators (the veggies for the night lol) Along with a very yummy cake!

Then her husband helped me get my nephews car seat properly in the car. They are amazing people, let me just tell you.

I watched my nephew all of Saturday night and part of Sunday. He was a great baby! And so precious!! The only bad part was that Joshua was at his parents all day Saturday. But he was a huge help Sunday when he got home. He moped, did dishes and even did some laundry along with helping me feed my adorable nephew Lane! It was all so cute!

Josh even cooked fillet mignon and some vegies on the grill for me.... I LOVE grilled food. I am so thankful his parents let us have their old one, now we can grill when there is snow on the ground!!

After church we went to an ice cream social and had even more fun!

Can I just say that I am so blessed and so thankful that God led us to this church? There are so many great people there and I love going to church and learning something new every Sunday. For example last night Pastor Brad spoke on the cost of worship and it really hit home that I haven't been giving God the time he deserves and when I do I haven't been giving him my full attention.

By the way Goblyn is so much better. He is pretty much his old self...sometimes a pain in the butt but hey I am so glad he is better! We are still giving him his meds though, he has like 12 more I think. As soon as we walked in the door from the social it was like he was a brand new dog, not at all the sick dog we had left only a few hours before. He is even eating....everything...again...

Gotta go! The rain stopped so nows the best time to get those posts!!

The NEW 101

Is pretty much going to be exactly like the old one. with a few tweeks.

And I have a few secret devices up my sleeves(mwah-hahahaha). I have the countdown app and the water drinking app. Woohoo!

I'm really excited about re-doing the whole thing because I started to feel like a horrible slacker, which may sound funny to you but I am a horrible list person. Mix that with procrastination traits and your in for a little depression. But that is ALL going to change, I am quitting cold turkey on this procrastination stuff! As cliche as it sounds I am about to be a full time college student, full time wife and part time business woman, so I don't have time for procrastination. I made a list today and got most of it done which makes me really happy!

Well yesterday was my moms birthday party and it was nice to see her and the rest of everyone living in the house. I had a great time spending time with my uncle(longish story for another post I'm sure.) Today is my step-sisters birthday, have I mentioned that August is really busy for us?!

I've got to go make PIZZA DOUGH!! Don't worry a more personalized post will be here soon!

Independence Day Weekend!

I really hope that everyone had a great holiday weekend! Here's a quick recap of mine:

We went to Josh's parents after he got off work. There were supposed to fireworks at the Huntsville Ball park, but there was none. It was sad. But I had a GREAT time with my sister and brother in law and their kids! My mother and father in law did a great job cooking! It was so much fun!

Sunday we went to church and the kids were so great and cooperative! I even got one little girl to pick up one set of toys before playing with the next set! Then that night we got rangled into coming for the cook out!! Josh made the burgers, I helped with the food!

Monday we went to my moms and had a good time! I am so glad I got to catch up with my sister and see her little boy again! It was a lot of fun. Her boyfriend and his sister were great, I'm really glad I got to meet them! And spending time with my uncle was also a lot of fun! He gave me tips on cooking and we talked about recipes and life.

We didn't watch fireworks at moms but on the way home we saw plenty! Not to mention the street was full of people shooting fireworks. There is something wrong with me though, I love that sulfer/gunish powder smell from the fireworks!

Poor Duchess was so scared of all the noise, she didn't come home until about three when all the fireworks where over. I was really worried but I am so thankful she is okay. We need to get her a wormer pill though and if that doesn't work then we'll be taking her to a vet!

Gobby surprised me though! He stayed at the house and when I let him in the garage with Josh and I while he was working on his bike, Gobby stayed with us and fell asleep with all the fireworks. He is pretty much not afraid of anything.

Hope you have a great rest of the day!

Going for the gold!

I started this morning off with a nice SuperSonic Breakfast burrito and half of a Butterfinger sonic Blast. Not the best idea I've ever had. Especially with all the sweets I've been eating lately.

So what's going to happen next is a weight loss goal. Last time I weighed I was at 132, my goal for the next two weeks is to be at a 122. Ten pound loss. Along with building the arms up a bit more, the stomach a bit flatter, the back more toned(I need to work on my back muscles especially for this coming hunting season), and definitely doing a lot of running. My goal is to run a marathon!! I actually do not know which one I am going to do yet!

But since my work out partner is now pregnant!!(Huge congrats to them!) I need a new work out partner! So I am on the hunt lol!

I slept in a little bit this morning and watered my plants along with a little bit of weed/rock pulling. Only to realize it was going to rain a lot sooner than I thought it would. My poor puppies are outside too! Tonight if it's not raining I will be doing more weed pulling(which get this, there are mushrooms trying to grow with my veggies!!) and some hoeing of the rest of the garden.

Pretty sure I figured out which marathon I'm doing! The Down and Dirty 5k! And I may even do some more this year!

My little brother is in town until monday and it's really exciting! I love catching up with him! We're going to the Twilight Walk tomorrow! Durn I can't find a good link for it!

Gotta run to the care and not get soaked so I can head to work!! Wish me luck haha