Rough Drafts

I was going to title this "Life of An Adult", but I don't know. It doesn't really fit.
So I'll tell you a little secret: Most of the time I do rough drafts of my posts. Not all the time, but most of the time. :)

As much as I'v tried to not stress and posted about not stressing, it just won't stop. Yesterday it just felt like everything was caving in. Even though I was still pretty chipper, I was more so frustrated and like I said, it felt like everything was caving in.

As much of a people person that I am, and as much as I love working at a restaurant, it is just not for me. I am not going to bad and I am not going to trash talk. I'm just going to take action and better my own life.

With my stress levels and my depression I was about to go down the hill. A pretty big bad hill. (and yes I know I promised to be honest, but there are still things I will not yet talk about, or in some cases talk about at all. Some things need to stay private, alway remember that.) But mah BFTAG stopped me, he has kept me sane and grounded. And I am very thankful to him and apologetic that I have not been a better friend. But that is something I'm working on. i've let a lot of wrong from past people and past experiences really affect me lately. Almost to the point of changing my me. My who I am.

Uh, there are so many things right now that are just crushing. In on me. And this time of year is the cuddly time, and have someone with you. Someone to save you from your family dinners and be able to take you and go to their families. I will say I'm thankful that my housemate has the tradition of having Thanksgiving at her house for friends that have no where else to go. It will be a saving grace for me.

I have been a bottomless pit for food for the past two days. I don't know if it's stress, if it's my metabolism or what. But it drives me crazy, I've gone though bouts(not sure if I spelt that right) my whole life. I will eat eat eat eat and then i will practically be anorexic. Its annoying.

I know this post has bounced off several walls, but that is my brain pattern today. All over. There is so much going on and that i have to do that its just ugh. Again I am sorry that this has been a crazy and somewhat downer post. I promise I will have a very chipper post for you soon.

have a GREAT weekend.